I have been an internet trolling machine.
For years, I’ve been tweeting at people who have never visited the internet.
I’ve stalked and harassed women who posted to social media.
And I’ve done everything I could to ruin their lives.
I have no shame in this.
I used to pretend I was a different person, I used the hashtag #NotMyAbortion.
I am not.
I was in the habit of saying things that were meant to be funny and clever.
But when I wrote a joke about a trans woman on Twitter, I was shocked.
People were horrified.
I’m a man, I am an adult, I know I’m not a rapist, but what does it mean to be a misogynist?
I’m tired of being a victim.
I don’t care about you anymore.
It’s time for me to stop.
I want to be remembered as a troll.
I would love to say this is the end of my internet life, but I don,t want to.
I can’t let it be.
I hate it.
And there’s a good reason for that.
I didn’t write it to be taken seriously.
I wrote it because I was so scared.
But now, I feel like I have to explain myself.
In the past, I would use a pseudonym because I thought it would make it easier to find people who shared my beliefs.
But as I became more aware of the social justice movements, I realized that there were people who would think I was trying to censor themselves.
I think the trolls will come after me for being a troll for a long time to come.
I’ll get the same kind of backlash I’ve received from people who don’t agree with my opinions.
That’s why I don’t use my real name anymore.
In order to get around that, I have a new nickname.
I call myself “Stevie Wonder”.
You know what I mean, Stevie Wonder?
Because she’s my name.
That would be hilarious.
I never expected people to like my Twitter account.
But I guess I didn’T expect that I would be accused of being an internet witch.
I just hope people stop being so afraid of me.
I hope they understand.
I wish I could give people hope, but it’s hard to think about.
I haven’t seen my friends since I went to school, and I’m afraid that they’ll think I’m dead.
If I can just survive, maybe I can live with that for a little bit longer.